that weird feeling of freedom of doing what ever you want and having no obligation to get on the server

Lmao, thing is I played only that server since I joined it so I have no clue what to do now.

You can still play it. You just resigned from staff.

Well yeah I know that, it's just I'm not obligated to be on it, and to be honest being staff on a server changes your whole perspective on it. I wanna find a new server to play on but they are all so bad.