So then, where to begin...
Thoughts have been weighing on my mind quite heavily over the last few weeks, and I've been thinking that I've been nothing but slacking within my duties as a gamemaker, on-top of not being very good at it anymore. I've been feeling detached, from creating events, creating stories, creating anything that requires the use of my imagination.
I tried to get back into the feel of making events, and it seems that I've forgotten what the job of being a gamemaker is all about. I was having fun making my events, but the server wasn't having fun going through them. I've felt highly discouraged, not only in the server, as a gamemaker, but in my everyday real life experiences. I can create as much as I want, but as long as the rest of the server isn't pleased with it, what's the point.
I've been told, time and time again, that my events were fun, that people enjoyed them. And now, after having been a gamemaker for half a year. I hear from people that they're only sub-par, that nobody enjoys them anymore. I feel burnt out, after hearing that people say such things, we're told we have to accept criticism from people, but when so many people say they no-longer enjoy what you wanted to bring to the server, it hurts.
I have enjoyed making events for as long as I have, and during my time as a gamemaker, I managed to make a lot of friends and become a part of a supportive family that enjoyed my company. But I feel as though the Halo RP Community doesn't feel the same way as myself, and I am not calling any one, single, person out. Because I feel that would be incredibly immature of me.
So this is where I take my leave from the position of a Halo RP gamemaker, I'll still be on the server, of course. I still have to remain dedicated to the roleplay I've gotten myself into. I simply feel as though being a gamemaker isn't something I want to do anymore, it was fun, while it lasted.
On a personal note, I'd like to say @Lex, I did not make this resignation simply because you pulled me into a TS channel and told me that I wasn't doing my job properly, I don't want you to think I'm resigning because you told me that people didn't like my events, because it wasn't you who made me come to this decision.
Thoughts have been weighing on my mind quite heavily over the last few weeks, and I've been thinking that I've been nothing but slacking within my duties as a gamemaker, on-top of not being very good at it anymore. I've been feeling detached, from creating events, creating stories, creating anything that requires the use of my imagination.
I tried to get back into the feel of making events, and it seems that I've forgotten what the job of being a gamemaker is all about. I was having fun making my events, but the server wasn't having fun going through them. I've felt highly discouraged, not only in the server, as a gamemaker, but in my everyday real life experiences. I can create as much as I want, but as long as the rest of the server isn't pleased with it, what's the point.
I've been told, time and time again, that my events were fun, that people enjoyed them. And now, after having been a gamemaker for half a year. I hear from people that they're only sub-par, that nobody enjoys them anymore. I feel burnt out, after hearing that people say such things, we're told we have to accept criticism from people, but when so many people say they no-longer enjoy what you wanted to bring to the server, it hurts.
I have enjoyed making events for as long as I have, and during my time as a gamemaker, I managed to make a lot of friends and become a part of a supportive family that enjoyed my company. But I feel as though the Halo RP Community doesn't feel the same way as myself, and I am not calling any one, single, person out. Because I feel that would be incredibly immature of me.
So this is where I take my leave from the position of a Halo RP gamemaker, I'll still be on the server, of course. I still have to remain dedicated to the roleplay I've gotten myself into. I simply feel as though being a gamemaker isn't something I want to do anymore, it was fun, while it lasted.
On a personal note, I'd like to say @Lex, I did not make this resignation simply because you pulled me into a TS channel and told me that I wasn't doing my job properly, I don't want you to think I'm resigning because you told me that people didn't like my events, because it wasn't you who made me come to this decision.
Signed~ [Former] Gamemaker Xur.