- Joined
- Jul 4, 2018
- Messages
- 63
- Points
- 18
- Age
- 24
My dear friends , most of you know who i am ,where i come from , what i have accomplished. Everything has led to this moment.
Let's be honest , I've been too long in this server , i am not the same person any more. I am not Kai the new commander that helped everyone, i am not Kai that rebuilt the entire marine corps from scraps alone. My prime has passed , as a person , as a commander , as everything . I think it's time i let the next generation take over. Some people here are the brightest example i can think and i am extremely happy that i got to meet them , help and work with them. But i think...i think i am done , I've always wanted to work harder than anyone , I've always tried to help and take as many responsibilities as i could to carry more weight so other people could have less responsibilities and enjoy more of their time in the server. But i can't anymore. I don't have the strength to keep going. What was once a great fire of courage and will that burned inside me , now its nothing more than smoldering embers , waiting to be extinguished by time. I am tired ... too tired. I am afraid It has finally come to that , because when you remove the armor , the attitude , the whole front i have been forcing myself to project to other people , i am still a mere man. Vulnerable , tired , with feelings. I know most of you never thought of even seeing me that way because of my character and personality , so this is it , this is as close you are going to get to the real me. ODSTs were my last stop , and right now i owe one final try to them , but once i hang my armor , and that will be soon , know it will be for good.
I don't think i was a good leader , and my biggest regret is that i wasn't good enough , i let you all down, but i want people to remember that i was a good friend. I want people to remember me as Kai . Not as Jerome , not as Jai . I wish i was still that person.
I like to think that i was always honest with everyone , and i hold no grudges or ill feelings for anyone in HaloRP. Thank you for trusting me with so many positions and most importantly, with your friendship, you mean everything to me , and i love you all, no matter the faction or the squad.
Let's be honest , I've been too long in this server , i am not the same person any more. I am not Kai the new commander that helped everyone, i am not Kai that rebuilt the entire marine corps from scraps alone. My prime has passed , as a person , as a commander , as everything . I think it's time i let the next generation take over. Some people here are the brightest example i can think and i am extremely happy that i got to meet them , help and work with them. But i think...i think i am done , I've always wanted to work harder than anyone , I've always tried to help and take as many responsibilities as i could to carry more weight so other people could have less responsibilities and enjoy more of their time in the server. But i can't anymore. I don't have the strength to keep going. What was once a great fire of courage and will that burned inside me , now its nothing more than smoldering embers , waiting to be extinguished by time. I am tired ... too tired. I am afraid It has finally come to that , because when you remove the armor , the attitude , the whole front i have been forcing myself to project to other people , i am still a mere man. Vulnerable , tired , with feelings. I know most of you never thought of even seeing me that way because of my character and personality , so this is it , this is as close you are going to get to the real me. ODSTs were my last stop , and right now i owe one final try to them , but once i hang my armor , and that will be soon , know it will be for good.
I don't think i was a good leader , and my biggest regret is that i wasn't good enough , i let you all down, but i want people to remember that i was a good friend. I want people to remember me as Kai . Not as Jerome , not as Jai . I wish i was still that person.
I like to think that i was always honest with everyone , and i hold no grudges or ill feelings for anyone in HaloRP. Thank you for trusting me with so many positions and most importantly, with your friendship, you mean everything to me , and i love you all, no matter the faction or the squad.
