ROA: Struggling To Hold Up

[Kai]

I know I just came to this server but when I came I resigned from a place that had a lot of people I failed and a lot of people who possibly won't forgive me after what I have done there in SCP:RP and I failed a faction there that needed me there but I ended up leaving them I was very selfish with letting the problems get to me to push me out of the server and after I resigned it was not hard at all until I looked back to what I left is when things started getting very difficult to even breathe, and I'm currently in emotional distress after a lot of regret and guilt now in me I just can't hold up so don't put me through any tryouts because I won't be active for anything new for a while.. I'm sorry, I fucked up.

~Tyr​

 

[Dävid]

KAI SHUT THE FUCK UP AND ENJOY YOURSELF. YOU’RE THE LEAST SELFISH PERSON I KNOW. WE ARENT MAD AT YOU, WE ARE JUST SAD THAT YOU LEFT SCP RP. OK?

But in all seriousness, please don’t blame yourself for leaving SCP RP

 

[Sawyer]

KAI SHUT THE FUCK UP

Please do not use harsh profanity since this can come across quite rude.
This is a verbal warning.​

 

[Dävid]

Please do not use harsh profanity since this can come across quite rude.
This is a verbal warning.​

Yeah I’m sorry, just got a bit emotional.

 

[Ace of Spades]

Look man, I think you really need a change in perspective. You were one of the longest standing players in SCP that was still active and still trying his best to make a difference in the server that would be positive. All you should be doing is looking back with a positive smile and say "well, I gave it my best." You were one of the last people in the server attempting to make it a real RP server and I get it, it sucks. I tried myself when I was apart of the SCP community to change it to an RP server, but when I found out that everyone else was content with how it was doing then, and even now still not wanting to change it for the 'better', it blew. Really took the wind out of my sail. I'm sure you feel the same.

The fact of the matter is you can scream into the wind all day, every day, but unless those around you want to make the difference then it's not your fault. And I really kind of take issue with the fact that you're saying you faild others, man again you TRIED SO HARD. You were apart of the server and tried much, much longer than I before you gave up. And you did a better job than me too! Cause you had solutions instead of my consistent whining.

And screw anyone else who gives you shit for it. You don't really owe anyone.
You stayed your course, revived TRT god knows how many times, fixed so many issues as Site Director, and more. This community will have its fair share of assholes. Everyone does, so don't let them get to you cause then they win. They don't care about you, they care about giving you shit.

You are a good guy kai, don't let assholes live rent-free in your head. And don’t feel like you failed anyone, because you haven’t.​

 

[Suager]

You need to see it like this = You've done a lot for us
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yeah, us maybe a lot of people or a little, but you shall remember that in the end you still helped the server, you were the only one that care about RP in a RP server (Wow), you did not abandoned them and were selfish, you just made things faster, it was the time and you took the oportunity


Honestly i felt the same, but after you think about it, it was the time to go, people dont last forever, and lasting forever is awful.

Remember that the people wont hate you because you left them, yeah sadness lasts a while but it's only a while, the decision you've taken makes you go foward and not stick to the present, because that's what humans are, and you're human Kai.

Just take in mind, that when the people was getting bored and stressed, you were there helping them out, when you didnt had to.

 

[Sal]

Kai you influenced a lot of people. You most likely didn't see it but you were a shepherd and sheep followed you. They have gone down the wrong path but there was nothing you could of done to prevent it. You were unhappy so you left. You never pushed anyone else to resign they did it on their own accord (plus school is starting a lot of people resign).
Are you going to lay in the dumps or influence a whole new load of people who haven't even heard your voice?

You believe you did something wrong, the only thing you did wrong was believing that you did something wrong.​

 

[HoJ.Zeratul]

you'll get through it